I feel it. Very powerful poem.

Mamma Mia!

xo
 

You're amazing.

Last night I heard "Catch My Disease" in the supermarket. I started signing along and dancing... I couldn't help myself. It was a wonderful feeling.
 

"the teacher you need is the one who will come to you."

:) VERY true. Only recently, I've realized that I need to be a whole person again, the person I'm meant to be. Something happened to me several years ago that stunted me...I became jagged, harsh, brittle, not comfortable in my own skin or with the different aspects of myself (i.e.-spirtuality, sexuality, creativity). Slowly, I've been recontructing myself...but I think I've been looking for direction or guidance.
Went to an Aimee Mann/Ben show on a whim...bought my ticket 2 days before, and now I'm here, & have MANY teachers.
This all came along at such a RIGHT time in my life...but I wasn't consciously looking for it, I was just ready for it, I guess.

Regarding something Erin said previously: not only do I feel that way about music, but...I've never shared this with anyone before b/c I think it would be off most people's Out There meters; you guys would get it, I think. Sometimes I like to go out in the woods & make myself very still & quiet, & I can FEEL the energy of the earth through the soles of my feet. If I touch a tree trunk, I imagine the life flowing through it. And it fills me with such a mixture of joy (b/c I feel connected to something bigger) & sadness (b/c...the earth is sad over what we're doing to it. I mean, it's palpable!). So, I guess even though I label myself Agnostic (why DO we feel this need to label ourselves?!), I still believe in something. It's almost a religious ecstasy when I'm there. I go there a lot when I'm at a creative nadir b/c I can feel the Collective Unconsious there more than anywhere else, if that makes sense.
Now you all think I'm crazy. haha ;)
Ah, well...


<3, Kristy
 

You got shafted last night...and my best friend and I were pissed that no one even announced you weren't playing and when we asked the merch guy what the deal with Ben Lee was he was a total jerk about it. I was so looking forward to seeing you play cause my bday is next week and I was hoping you'd play Birthday Song...maybe next time eh?
 

kristy - i get that as well. i have those spiritual moments with everything. i had a huge talk with my friend last night about her love of god. and the faith i have in music, and people...and sometimes ill be walking along on one of those days where you can feel the sky hugging you and youre smiling and peaceful and you dont know why. that is my faith.

to her...that is god. the goodness in people is god. that feeling is god.

maybe it really is just a label. im not 100% on what to call or say my belief is...and it will change as the wind blows..im open. but when i feel it i know it. just the faith that i have. in whatever it is i have faith in.

now i am rambling!@
 

ElyseNoelle- I think I met you last night.. you were talking to the security guard about..why isn't Ben coming out the merch table?

well to the Band- I hope you liked the flowers! I thought the sunflowers and daisies were nice, and the sunflower is kansas' state flower! too bad about the weather, though Ben Folds played a nice, extra long set! (didn't end til 11:30)
 

I have something to share with you all.
I had some significant surgery on thursday and was really ill from the anaesthetic and pain killers they gave me. Consequently i was lying in hospital feeling very sorry for myself when a friend sent me a message, saying it was the perfect opportunity to praise god in both suffering and pain. So i did, and it made me realise that faith is so much stronger when you keep the light going in the darkest of times. My pain was minute compared to the constant pain of say people who are dying of AIDS, and yet it made me respect their unwavering strength in faith despite all the bad. It is so easy to believe in something when all is good, but what happens when things dont go according to plan?
Faith...i see some of you were querying what is it while i was away, and so i would like to share my thoughts. Faith is golden light, it reminds me of self-esteem a bit actually. If you believe you are a strong person despite the taunts of others (high self-esteem) you are. Similarly if you believe in something despite the criticisms then your faith is strong.
Go out not to be slightly successful but to be extraordinary!!!
Amour,
Ami
 

Wow, first of all Ami I hope you are recovering well!! What a strange coincidence because I was just coming to post something that I wrote after I had eye surgery in february to repair a retinal detachment. I was thinking about the why do bad things happen question and wanted to post this that I wrote to my friends at that time:

So this eye surgery and my slow recovery has led me to think about vulnerability and suffering more and in a different way than I ever have before. At one point recently I started to see a sort of despair and desperation in the face of suffering. I began wondering what is the point of life? Then I remembered--haha--the point is to stand up and dance anyway. To stand up and defy mortality and suffering while you live. To express yourself and your joy while you are here.

From Island by Aldous Huxley: For us there's no bliss, only the oscillation between happiness and terror and a sense of outrage at the thought that our pains are as integral a part of Nataraja's dance as our pleasures, our dying as our living. Life and death, order and disintegration, impartially. But now look at Shiva's other pair of hands. The lower right hand is raised and the palm is turned outwards. It signifies, "Don't be afraid; it's all right." But how can anyone in his senses fail to be afraid? How can anyone pretend that evil and suffering are all right, when it's so obvious that they're all wrong? Nataraja points at his feet. The right foot is planted squarly on a horrible little subhuman creature—the demon, muyalaka. Muyalaka is the embodiment of ignorance, the manifestation of greedy, possessive selfhood. Stamp on him, break his back! But he points at the left food, the foot that, as he dances, he's in the act of raising from the ground. And why does he point at it? That lifted foot, that dancing defiance of the force of gravity—it's the symbol of release, of liberation.

ps. Brie that's another fiction book I recommend in addition to Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse--Island by Aldous Huxley
 

Hi all...

Ben - I had an inkling that might be the answer... It often seems that things find a way of happening as I need them to happen, not necessarily as I want them to happen - And I've come to appreciate and love this... this life. Thanks much for reminding me of my own power :)

It's true, I absolutely feel alive, feel the good within me and everyday I try to let it out, more and more, try to listen, to know what to do, which way to go... all by opening my heart.

The poem is amazing... I went to link and read up too, and I'm very much interested in the divine mother... it may be because I had such an incredible mom growing up, one who passed away much too early... I often think of her as protecting me, guiding me... I feel a general motherly love everyday, something that makes me smile and love everything I see... I love watching people get lost in the moment in happiness, I'm sure sometimes people think I'm kinda creepy, staring at them, but I love to see them laugh without care. Ben, I bet you get to see a lot of this... watching us sing along with closed, happy eyes :)

Kristy - When I'm at the ocean, digging into the sand and lying down staring at the sun with nothing to hear but waves I most definitely feel the energy of the earth - it feels peaceful, and sometimes sad.

Ami - I'm moved by music everyday. I adore a song which can transport me to this enlightened state of knowing and loving and being... amazement...

Thanks Ben for starting this amazing community of lovelies -

Love and lillies to you all :)
brie the flea

p.s. - thanks for the recommedations Sage... I read Siddhartha years ago, but should re-read it... And I'll look for Island.
 

White light and love to you, Ami.
Feel better!

Brie> If I ever get the chance, I'm going to meditate at the ocean. It's a very powerful place; I'm not surprised you felt something there. I can't live in a land-locked state...I have to know the ocean is there murmuring at me, even if it's 4 hours away.
Ironically, I have a fish phobia. haha :) (No, really!)


<3, Kristy
 

wow, you guys are so spiritually ahead of me. i feel like a child. not that im really looking to be that spiritual... i need to find my own level and type of spirituality that feels right for me... one day, one day. :) its all a process.

and for ben: im going to see your show in denver on tuesday. hopefully all goes well. if you see a girl with short hair with pink in the front.. that would be me...most likely. ;) if youre looking for a place to eat in denver, i would really recommend the watercourse. it has excellent vegetarian food and the best vegan desserts around. its also pretty close to the fillmore, where youll be playing. http://www.watercoursefoods.com/

i see that missy is playing in co on the 20th. ive never heard any of her music.. maybe ill check her out then.

take care!
 

dreamdays> i so know what you mean everyone seems so spiritual and stuff here and i'm not much...
in science at school we are learning about blood vessels, veins etc.. and i said to my friends ' can u believe that God created all this? he is the almighty being of the universe' and they said' bean?' i said 'no God is not the almighty baked bean of the universe... BEING'...
ben> i think on 'friends and family' a couple of posts before this one i wrote all my dreams i had of you i was just wondering if you read them or would u like me to post them again?
after reading all this amazing stuff about spirituality and stuff i was wondering how can i be like you and have some of the answers? the closet place i have to nature is my backyard (i don't live near a beach or forest) i really want to be like everyone here cos i think it will help me .. im not saying i want to fully change religions (i am catholic)i just want to surrender to life and take it as it comes.. anyone that can help me please help.
ta everyone... ben can't wait to see you at the riverstage.. i think i am allowed to go.. i have red hair up to my shoulders and i am short not very good description i know but oh well...
kristy> no one thinks your crazy its ok..
Rachel.
p.s. some one said to me today i have changed or something im not being myself bla bla (i don't neccessarily like this person) and i said i have a disease (yeah you all know where this is headed) .. THE BEN LEE DISEASE!! sorry i just had to add that.

http://benleelover.blogspot.com
 

Teachers

I made one resolution in my life that I wanted to include meditation in my daily life more; a week later I was invited to live and work at a meditation centre.

The teacher I had given up looking for is divinely outrageous. The love when you make such a connection is undeniable, and you have to share it.

You can check him out @ www.ishwara.com

Blog on beatiful people.
Love
 

Message for Captain of the Weiner Patrol:

LOVED the baked bean comment! :)

I guess it's important to realise everyone one of us is on their own path and is at their own level of awareness. I think you hit the nail on the head when you said you wanted to just surrender to life and take it as it comes. Trying to be like everyone else will just make you dim the light that you're meant to shine. You've got a beautiful pathway laid out before you & you should embrace your uniqueness and your fantastic individuality!!

I was raised a Catholic as well and the only way I learnt and grew was by observation & reading about different religions, spiritual beliefs, etc.

The paradox is - you already have all the answers within you! It's just finding how the *bleep* do you get them to the surface?! If you're looking for somewhere to start, I suggest meditating or sitting quietly for 5-10 minutes a day to connect to that peaceful/wise part inside of you.

Your dreams are an excellent way to start - it's awesome you are writing them down - they are a great doorway into the soul. A book you might like is "Pocketful of Dreams" by Denise Linn. It's kind of up to the person who has the dream to interpret their meaning but the chicken might have to do with all your science experiments in school, having a dream within a dream is lucid dreaming (more in that book) and the colour yellow can relate to joy & expression!

So Rachel my advice is keep asking questions, keep searching & be proud of who you are and where you are right now...

See you in the front row ;)

Stacey
 

HAHAHA! Baked bean! No...I think It'd be more of a garbanzo bean. They taste better on a salad.
Ok. I don't know what that means. I just woke up.
But, anyhoo...I'm not too concerned w/ people thinking I'm "crazy"...I'm not going to change my worldview to suit others. :)

I don't feel like I'm "ahead" of anyone spiritually. I don't know or feel any more than anyone else does. We're all just picking our way along, yeah?
I don't think you can force anything spiritual; you just need to be open to it. Like Stacey said, quiet contemplation is always a good thing. Turn off the world for a while & see what happens.

<3, Kristy
 

Bakeds Beans :)

Rachel - you're amazing, I can't imagine being where you are when I was 14, being so able to talk freely about so many things... and I'm think you're more spiritual than you give yourself credit for...

rock on captain

brie the flea
 

i drove 5 hrs from stl to see you. so i figure you owe me 50 bucks. just kidding. but for real come back to stl so i can see you. you came to stl a bit ago and i couldnt go but my friend bj got me ur autograph i dont know if u remeber it says sara- i miss you ben lee. seriously come back to st. louis cause we love you
 

You know, it's still raining here in Kansas City. And it's been two days. Oh well, but I must agree with Sara about the St Louis business.
 

A question for you, Ben: you've mentioned someone's "truth" a few times now, & I'm not exactly sure I know what you mean. Can you explain?


I swear, I *do* do other things besides post here! hahaha. Just yesterday, I sat down at my keyboard & played for 3 hours straight without realizing it! The discussions going on here are just so interesting & exciting to me. Must. Know. More. :)

<3, Kristy
 

To all you ocean LOVERS I am sending you some BREATHINg WAVES...

I've been up by the sea for a few weeks on and off now....as I'm in between apartments. I LOVE WATER. and it makes me laugh that all the songs i've written up here seem to be like "take me down to the water side" ha ha. I wonder where that inspiration is coming from..? ha

I used to dance in front of the ocean from the time I was 4 on...to me it's one of the places where sound becomes ordained to sand...true flowing music...and the true flow of the in, out of the BREATH...

it's been a little tricky to be inbetween my life here and my life in new york...missing my friends and the pace is so different...but I am trying to trust...this is a CLEARING Unto the next place.

Ami you're brave. Sage you're astounding. Brie your'e beautiful. Dreamdays your bloom is arriving. Rachel there's so much ahead of you. Every one who i'm not naming I had a long work day forgive me..ha ha.to the lovely asking me to send her a care package of LIGHt..I sent it already...

sit and face the sun..and feel it at your heart....

I have a book I keep by my bedside called LETTERS FROM THE MOTHER, MATRI.....I'll have to check out who wrote it...when i read it first oceans were arriving through my eyes...it just was like YES.

I watched surfers today surrender to the waves...it was interesting this balance between effort and surrender...it reminded me of so much of life...

what is the thrilling drive without the surrender...let yourself have the moments....where you FEEL CONNECTED...

Ben- I'll def. check out these writings...

I learned long ago after visiting a handful of healers that you recieve from teachers and take what fits for you....a true teacher does point you to your own heart...it is AMAZINg once you give permission to recieve guidance what will show up at your door..so Miss Brie just by doing this..it's already happening...

Thank you again everyone on here for teaching me...that I'm not alone in believing we're on to something here...

" Girl, go down to the water side
and wash away every thing
that's lonely
everything that isn't the truth
from your skin
feel what it is to be pure
and true again
pure and true again
pure and true again

pure and true again."

Love you much

SuzQ*
 

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I was at your show last night in Tulsa and I have to say it was amazing! I really had a great time. And afterwards I thought that it was really cool that you did the meet and greet. Thankyou for talking to my friend on the phone I heard from everyone today that he went on about it all day. SO thanks that was awesome. I hope you come back soon.
<3
 

thanks everyone for helping me.gypsychick,kristy,brie,suzie q.. thanks so much...you are amazing beautiful people.. don't ever forget it.. omg i have just started full out crying thank you(not being sarcastic)
yay its ekka holidays wooo

yay i am going to your concert at the riverstage with my mum, my friend and her mum.. yay so excited i am like screaming every five seconds(not that i'm totally obsessed or anything.. yeah right. lol) hope to meet you after i have red hair... isn't that amazing.. and people always tell me my head is on fire that would be cool if it didn't like burn.. cool i mean hot anyways..
well ta ta then

Rock on everyone
luv Captain of the Weiner Patrol
 

yay i am going to your concert at the riverstage with my mum, my friend and her mum.. yay so excited i am like screaming every five seconds

just remember to take deep breaths during the concert so ya dont faint! ;)
 

Ben, I was at the Tulsa show a few nights ago and you were great. I'm going to be honest, I've never heard your music before- but I loved it.

The timing of my discovery was precise. I'm at this point in my life where I am finding out who I am and how I see the world, and not how others desire me to see it. I can relate to the notion of an "awakening," a fresh perspective- essentially a new beginning.

Ahhh, the journey that life takes on is quite exhilirating.

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." Alan Cohen
 

Ben Lee, you should make "We are all in this together" bumper stickers. I'd buy one. They may even prevent a few traffic accidents.
 

I think I'm on the verge of something... of being and surrendering and loving...

it feels big and small and amazing

and free
 

Beautiful people,
It's amazing how refreshed and alive and NORMAL I feel coming here and reading Ben's blog/our blog. Ben, we are officially taking over!!! ;)
Rachel, it's so amazing that you are searching for yourself and better things to come at such a tender young age. A better understanding of the world. Feeling comfortable in your own skin. Opening your eyes and your heart in order to surrender and receive. Crap. I'm just learning to do that at the tender age of 27!! So sista - you are indeed on the right path. None of us are ahead in the game of life, we are all just at different stages. The thing is, we are all "works in progress". I don't ever want to be "complete" in my search for truth or goodness...it's always going to be in my belly, driving me on, pushing me forward, burning away like hot coals.
So many people seem so busy with their day to day activities that they really miss the simplicity of life altogether. I know ive done that. I know ive taken friends and loved ones for granted. There are days that I wallow in my own self-pity and think about the things that I don't have, instead of the beautiful things that I do. But its when I stop, and just "be", that things become clearer for me. Flowers seem so vibrant and sweet. The birds chirping in my backyard are serenading me, JUST ME! My daughter's giggles send shivers of happiness down my spine. Ive discovered that for me, being happy, is all about accepting that i'm supposed to be where I am, at this point in my life. Forget regret. Forget mistakes. Forget grudges, or ill feeling, or resentment, or self loathing. Forget trying to get somewhere that may never arrive. Just BE. BEING ME!
Rachel, youve talked about your dreams, and how you dream about our dear ben (don't you just love the way ive claimed him, just for us???lol) I had the best and most crazy dream just the other day. I now live in the US, but because of Immigration stuff, I havent been able to go home for 4 years. I have a husband and a 2 year old that my parents have never met. I miss my family and friends terribly. At times it gets very dark for me. BUT, just the other day I had a dream that I was on a bus, and it seemed like I was on my way to school. The bus was winding around the roads of Coogee, and Bondi (i'm from Sydney). And surely enough, at the back of the bus, was Ben, with a bunch of friends (obviously on his way to school, too), being loud and causing a raucous, singing away at the top of his lungs. It was such a beautiful dream full of happiness and merriment, full of celebration and being HEARD. I woke up laughing. Well, surely enough, THAT DAY, I get the mail, and there's a letter from Immigration informing me that things are proceeding quickly. This means that I get to spend Christmas with my family in Australia. CHRISTMAS with MY FAMILY! "You mean, I no longer have to jam out to AWAKE IS THE NEW SLEEP, in my backyard, in the dark, with my brother in australia, on the other end of the phone? I can DO IT IN PERSON????" This news made my YEAR! I am so HAPPY. I am so blessed. And so grateful. And so full of love right now, I think I might burst!!!
Anyway, I just wanted to share that beautiful, happy ending with you all - This movement, this thing that we are creating, this support group that I have, means the world to me. And you are all very special, SPECIAL people.
Take care guys.
LOVE,
B
 

yeah!

I'm so happy for you Miss Boopshop...ha ha I feel so silly for still calling you that...

that's so COOL...the dream of joy and then the news...and that is SO POWERFUL that your family will get to meet your little girl and your man....it was so BRAVE of you to come to this wild frontier on your own!

I can FEEL YOUR JOY!

ha ha. i ironically had a dream the other night that Mr Lee was sitting in front of a Big Bay window and sitting up in this bed..( remember old sleepovers when you'd all crash together in one big bed ) well there were all these people and we were all laughing and sharing stories...

ha ha..it was AWESOME

I was sitting in front of the ocean just watching the waves surrender ...thinking about all you guys and where I'm headed today. I signed a lease on an apt. today - so I'll be back in nyc writing and doin my thing soon...it Feels a little like whoa man....and I am trying to merge the vision with the newborn reality...

it was awesome Ben to read that interview you did...having known so little about you...I loved hearing about your early ambition...and my favorite part was you talking about "belonging to the world" .....you KNOW how needed and precious you are...and I'm starting to realize that...that point where you're carrying your own torch separate from your family and you've got fire that's gotta shine behind your small town ( I'm thinking of that song sunflower right now...which I've never heard...but seen the lyrics for..you knew where you were going even then ) I always had this fear about fame...but now I can feel this " belonging to the world " and stepping into the light seems possible without giving up who I am ..rather becoming brighter...and everyone I've met on here ....man I'd love to invite everyone of you to my house for a joy party ha ha...

I still re.member the night I looked across at you in that diner in midtown...and I remember thinking I had a choice...I could either look back or look away...but I was ready...and I could see your whole life...

and it was like people from your planet are showing up....ha ha it;s time. and here I am with other people from " my planet" on here...

you FEEL like a mentor, and a friend, and a strong memory...and a pure heart...and all of you on here it's SO REAL and beautiful.

This is what I was reading by the sea today...

" Who is this Mother who has so many plans and so much to say? She is absolute consciousness, knowledge, and light. She has many names; Isis, Tara, Diana, Gaia. To Hindus she is Kali, Lakshmi and Sarasvati. To Catholics, she is the Madonna. To Chinese, she is Kuan Yin. She appears in every culture, in every age, in every dimension. She is Durga-the Mother of the Universe. She is Shakta-Life itself. She is hiding in you, waiting to be discovered."

-Zoe Ann Nicholson

As the waves crashed...I remembered my self in awe of the ocean..body surfing in with the tide...in awe of this great power beyond me..as a child....even then I was a performer...but when no one was looking I was a mover with the sea...with the divine energy of moving..of trying to fly...always feeling the wind and in love with the idea of limitless...

when i became a ballerina and at age 17 was looking to go pro....one day I asked myself why am I dancing if no one is looking...because it became all about being "good" being this athlete of the unattainable....

I loved to move...

but now that I've started finding my voice...there's no going back...because I'm connecting to THE FLOW again ...like the sea....I'm connecting to YOU. After reading that interview...I guess I'm just Connecting to a similar experience...

and it's just so beautiful because I think as you said all these people are waking up at the same time....back to the power in our own hearts and own bellies...we start to realize we're part of THE CREATOR...

amd I imagine now...us all dancing at a backyard party with rooted trees and chinese lanterns....and candles and laughter...and when i look at you...you say this is my highest vision for myself...and I say "I believe in you" and another says " I feel Love" and I say "It's Real" and another says "This is my dream" and I say " you can create it". we've all had opposition around us. and that was the other powerful thing i read in the article Ben...about how you weren't seeing what you needed manifested yet..so you manifested it...you found your joy..you felt your HEART BREAK open...

and everything flood out when you met what was a healer to you...and you shared it and you do so gloriously..by be.ing hu-man....eloquently human....but hu-man nonetheless...

to you soldier of bliss, you who belong as the stars and the moon....re.member to re-fuel...let the earth charge you...

to the beauties on here close your eyes when you need it and join the backyard shindig...

maybe someday we can have a real one! can you imagine the power and beauty in that room!

you are the last star you wished on.

LIGHT to

IMAGINE> ORDAIN>and CREATE

SuzieQ*
 

p to the s

Sage your a sag. no wonder we get along..and kristy a virgo..and brie a leo...nice mix...I'm psyched to see you soul sistas showing up on my myspace...you'll be up in my "friends" box as soon as I can get to another computer...

Miss Brie I'm sending Patrick Swayze (sp ) over to your house in an hour of you getting this....

you guys are gonna practice "lifts" in the lake at the backyard shindig...wear a hot suit...

talk to you soon-
Suz*
 

The fantastic SuzieQ,
SUPERB on your new abode - CONGRATS! it's been a long haul, so good for you! FANTASTIC. I'm dancing for you. YAY!
I'll email soon, dear friend. You can call me whatever youd like - BOOP BOOP DE BOOP! (as I shrug, smirk, and batt my eyelids).
PEACE,
Bianca
 

hey ben,

it was nice seeing you tonight. thank you for the banana, that was very sweet of you. for the record, it has been eaten and it was good. :> could you explain the significance of it to me again? ive got the main idea, but its hard to take in everything when the auditorium is so loud.

thanks, too, for your genuine warmth and kindness. i hope you feel mine too. :)
 

Aww. Boopshoop, that's awesome that you get to go Home. *big hugs* What a wonderful thing to read first thing in the morning.

Dream Days> Maybe you look Potassium-deprived? heh. By the way (well, it's not really "by the way" b/c it has nothing to do w/ bananas), the email that I sent you keeps kicking back. AOL doesn't like me, for some reason.


<3, Kristy
 

the email that I sent you keeps kicking back. AOL doesn't like me, for some reason.

someone recently told me the same thing. how odd.

here is my other email address. hopefully things will work out better with it. wuzzle5@animail.net

:)
 

( these last few days ive felt so sick. im finally feeling better and am SO thankful. sometimes you forget how good it feels just to be healthy. )
 

I saw you play at the Filmore last night. I had never heard of you before, but I absolutely LOVED your music and your energy. It was an incredible performance. I really wanted to talk to you after your show, but I couldn't want to lose my spot in the front row. Thanks for the amazing night. Rock on!
 

Dreamdays> I've been sick, too. And based on the ManiaTV interview, so's Ben.
Hey, uhhhhh, Ben? You never mentioned that this Disease would require antibiotics!
*cough*

:p
 

thank you again everyone.. im so happy for you boopshoop and thankyou. well i am so excited to go to your concert ben.. yay..
about the baked beans thing my friend was singing a song about them the other day it goes something like this:
baked beans the magical fruit
the more you eat
the more you toot!

this blog has turned into something amazing and beautiful hasn't it? at first we were all like i wish ben would read the comments and then we found out he does (i was so excited when i found out about that) and now we are helping each other get through everything and being so nice and stuff... omg i came up with an idea that on this blog we can say what we wanna say about ben/his shows etc and then tell a funny/happy/weird/cool story about your life. here ill go first:

one night my family went over these peoples house because their son was in my bros footy team and we had yummy food and some cake which was really creamy.. then i went home. the end .. nah just kidding.. i woke up at 1am in half asleep mode, opened the hard-to-open window, put my head out and spewed.. then in the morning i woke up again and my mum was hosing the side of our house under my window.

well i wonder if any of you can beat my story and apologies for anyone who spewed after reading

ta ta
Captain
 

LOL oh what a funny horrible story. :P im not sure if i can beat that.. even if i could, i dont know if id wanna write it here. hehe. ;)

kristy - i didnt know you or ben were sick (i didnt see the maniaTV thing). what kinda sick are you? i hope youll have a speedy recovery!
 

Dreamdays> Oh, nothing major: Sinus infection, sore throat with swollen glands. I'm nearly recovered...however, how easy it is to fall back down the spiral when you're not feeling so well! :/ It's bothering me quite a bit...moreso than the physical aches & pains. Kind of disappointed in myself that that's all it takes.

<3, Kristy
 

how easy it is to fall back down the spiral when you're not feeling so well! :/

you said it exactly. thats what feeling sick does to you (and PMS :P). to everyone! in my very humble opinion, it doesnt mean youre a bad person or that youve cracked under the pressure... it means that you were sick and that youre HUMAN. even if you think differently, i still think youre okay. :)
 

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ah Kristy, I definitely feel you. mental and physical downward trips always seem to go hand-in-hand for me too. speaking purely medically, it takes a lot of energy to combat any kind of damage to your body (but especially the pathogenic sort), which leaves you no energy to keep your shit in line.
 

oh ows ows ows. i got my new guitar today, and my calluses are so bad already! :-) Oh, but how i love to hear the music coming from my fingers, it makes me feel so whole and uplifted. Sigh. i played for an hour and a half without even realising it!!! HOORAY for guitars. time for me to learn some ben stuff what do you reckon guys.
Haha, playing the guitar only a week after reconstuctive surgery...the doctor will have a fit but i NEED the music running through my veins. It's my lifeblood, and im healing better because of it. Do any of you guys play guitar? Have you noticed that you get this aura, this internal rhythm??
Amour
 

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i took guitar lessons from 2nd grade to 7th grade. when i started i couldnt even use a full-size guitar cause i was too small. then i stopped playing cause i didnt think i was really going anywhere with it and i wanted to socialize all the time rather than practice my music (like many teens). i never got calluses from playing, but now im getting some from lifting weights. i guess i should buy some of those gloves...

anyway, im glad you have your guitar!! do you like the cranberries? i love them.
 

omg there is a raffle at my school and the first prize is a guitar andi bought ten tickets i really want one.. ill just teach myself somehow.. lessons are for losers.. lol jk... anywatsywoo.. i guess the whole put-a-story-at-the-end-of-ur-comment thing isn't working oh well i tried.. any other ides are welcome.. hope you get better ben.. we need the music!!

todayi went to the library and go out some books about meditation and dreams and stuff like that.. my mum's like why you reading all this stuff and im like.. just want to know about it.. now shes making me feel guilty about it.. im not giving up on god etc.. anyways.. thanks for you help again everyone..
Keep it real,
Captain of the Weiner Patrol - keeping you safe from weiners (as in hotdogs not anything else you sickos)
 

Rachel> Maybe it would help if you let your mom know that PRAYER is actually a form of meditation. Anyone of any religion or even people who don't practice a religion at all can meditate. It has definite health benefits - both physical and mental.
And dreams can be either a manifestation of our hopes and fears or else messages from a Higher Being, however you want to think of it. I can understand her concern, b/c my mom would have the same reaction...people are afraid of things they don't understand, but maybe if you broach the subject that way...?

And, hey, as long as you're keeping us safe from hotdogs, could you also keep us safe from baked beans, too? Nasty buggers. :p Kthanx

Ami> I own a guitar but...I kind of suck at it. heh. Piano, on the other hand...yeah, I definitely get an aura from that.

<3, Kristy
 

Ami...

wa-hoo///

a gee...about 6 or 7 years ago...I had a chance to go to the Netherlands....for a semester...instead I bought a new martin guitar and a bed...ha ha and took the semester off and worked at a jazz club..

my life has never been the same since.

I do know what you mean about the aura....I love the brightaura space...

I found a guitar in my sister's attic when i was almost 19 I think...apparently when i was 4 I started taking piano lessons and told my teacher off..because i said " I was going to write my own music" ha ha...so lessons lasted for about a week....I played a little piano...and then...sang in the school choir..and of course music got into my skin and flooded on out as a dancer..but when i found that old beat up Peerless guitar....slowly slowly...things started happening...

It still would probably rock to take a few lessons...ha ha...might expand the ole horizons...

anyhoo I'm mad happy for you. ENJOY>

SUzieQ*